20051231
the end has finally arrived.i can't believe how quickly this year has passed. this year was a horrible year and i am so glad that today it ends. well it does end on the calendar but i know that those things that happened will just keep coming back to haunt me.
the events of 2005 has brought me through many periods of joy and absolute sorrow. I didn't hope for anything much this year except to make my effort shine in my academic results. All my efforts to please my parents have shown no success. It just kills me inside to think that all my efforts have indeed gone to waste.
without anything much to do last night, i managed tucked myself in by 11pm. listening to my shuffle, i realised that every song reminded me of something or someone. although those songs brought back many memories, some were better forgotten.
i thank all my friends for being there when things turned sour. THANK YOU. kisses to all.
oh blah-ha, this is no way to end a year and begin a new one. i certainly hope that my christmases and new years will no longer be accompanied by the usual somber atmostphere.
i know that this entry is dated 31st dec 2005, but i only managed to complete it today 1 jan 2006 because my mother was trying to kill me with her nagging. ( LETHAL, without a doubt ) now that i'm starting to attend church on sunday, i have this abominable feeling deep in my gut that it will come to an end. my parents' constant nagging about spending too much time at church doesn't assuage my doubts. i pray it doesn't end the way it did five years back.
oh yea this whole "staying at home because going out makes my mom scold me" thing is bad. i still get scolded every single day, somehow i can't find enough courage to seek permisson to leave the gates of my house. be kind and show some love, start a converstion with me on msn the next time you see me online (nothing fancy, a simple "hello i had chicken rice for dinner" would be absolutely swell too). staying at home with nothing but my mother's filing to do is starting to make me mould.
it makes me sad to think i can't resume school like the rest on the third. oh boohoo.
what a horrible year it has been doleful and vile year it has been.
hell,
SCREW 2005, HELLLLOOOOO 2006!
thus i end this year : )
michelle at 4:18:00 PM