20051226
it's 21 mins past christmas.for as long as i can remember i never looked forward for christmas.
maybe because my family never gets into the festive mood or maybe because in the past years i was facing piles of maths assesment books.
it's strange how i used hate school holidays. oh wait i still do.
each night, right before i fall asleep i would think about the day that i go back to school in my uniform to recieve the results. i'm very afraid that i might do really badly for english and i have this terrible feeling about maths and social studies. a few nights back, i dreamt that i did not complete my english paper and that i failed. last night i dreamt that i misinterpreted the question for the 2nd art paper. i think i really did get the question wrong, i think my piece was too simple.
i think i think too much.
i dreamt that i had chicken pox after watching home alone 4. haha.
looking at my past essays, i really sound like an illerate on paper. no wonder i can't score in my essays. it doesn't help that everyone around me are geniuses.
i should be going to bed. i'll awake to another day of my mom's nagging and accusations that don't make sense.
once again, bye christmas you weren't exactly that great.
michelle at 12:22:00 AM